I wish I could give you some advice,but I am truly lost right now as well!I guess all we can do is be patient and wait!I am just so tired of crying!The hurt and anxiety never goes away!I don't know about you but I feel completely obsessed!I hang on every word!

I am not feeling so patient today ... but I keep praying for God to give me strength and patience. And the crying? Tell me about it! I cried all day yesterday! I was like a leaky faucet. He kept saying "you're the one who did this" and I would reply "so I'm not allowed to have feelings?" He would finally console me a little and then things would be ok until a little bit later. I guess the worst part is all the mixed signals: I want us to share our lives, but not sure I want to be married; "I'm really trying here", but not coming home at night; "I want to have sex with you", "but we need to act like we're divorced"; "I've given up on you", but "please don't give up on me". (The list goes on and on.) Obsessed is a great word for it! I am completely enthralled in trying, but it is so hard to try when he keeps pushing harder and harder ... almost like he wants me to leave. But I'm not going anywhere! I JUST NEED SOME ADVICE!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/confused.gif" alt="" />

Happily Recovered from Double Infidelity! \:\)
DD1[about to turn 7]
DD2[due at X-mas]