You are in IC which is excellent. Have you talked with your Dr about getting some AD's to help with the extreme emotions?

I am against taking meds, so I am trying to use prayer and meditation to get me through.

Sorry I don't have more advice. You can just keep assuring him that you are here for the long haul, willing to own your stuff in all of it(which you are doing in IC) and want to work on it with him (maybe MC?).

Hang in there-

Thanks so much for your help ... you & your health will be in my prayers.

Happily Recovered from Double Infidelity! \:\)
DD1[about to turn 7]
DD2[due at X-mas]