There really has been NC. I don't have the urge or want to have contact with the OP. I know he lives very close to us..I have seen his truck drive by a few times but I do not look inside to see him. There is no addiction involved..I started counseling a few weeks ago but I've been without insurance so I had to end it until my new isurance starts up in about a month. I have def. learned a lot about myself..the person that I never want to be again. I've actually started a part time job while my son is in school to help myself and us financially. Then I also work 3-4 evenings a week as a massage therapist. I know I need to learn how to open up to him...I'm trying really hard..but I have told him everything. I have been completly honest even about the sexual details that he asks me about. I'm still trying to figure out why I allowed it to happen. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/confused.gif" alt="" />. I actually printed out the EN questionnaire and we are going to start that today. I know I need to work on me, and I have been. My BS has actually noticed some changes in me already. I am going to do everything and anything it takes to make this work..I love him soooo much and I can't imagine my life without him. K <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />