All I ever wanted was to be in love with the mother of my children.

Boy, do I hear you on that one. Between the alcoholism and depression with my husband, I know he is too sick to ever be the guy I want to spend the rest of my life with. And that is not how I envisioned my life turning out.

I have to bring up NED again because she recommended a book to me--it's on the Alanon list of 'conference approved literature'. I just ordered it, in fact. And I can't remember the name of it! ARGH! But it's supposed to be about how to deal with the feelings that fall out of life not turning out as you'd hoped. Hopefully she'll come along soon and supply the title.