Yesterday we took pictures (they won't let us take pictures at the synagogue tomorrow since it is Shabbat). In a few pictures the photographer had Mrs. Hold and I hold hands. She seemed to enjoy that very much. I felt wierd.

Huge extravanganza all weekend. Then no "togetherness" events on the horizon. My pulling away will be far more pronounced once there is no longer the need to discuss plans for the Bat Mitzvah. Planning for this event over the past few months has disguised how far apart we are.

If the hand holding is any indication, I don't think Mrs. Hold is going to enjoy the distance. I don't either. But I dislike it less than engaging with her emotionally but not having sex.

When you can see it coming, duck!