Oh hold.

You have to get some help.

I have been reading/posting to you now for 9 years. You matter to me (and many others here--and undoubtedly in real life).

Have you ever watched the movie "The Game" with Micheal Douglas? It's a really good movie. I think you should watch it.

Please get help, dear hold.

Me 42
H 46
Married 12 years
Two children D9 and D4 !