I think you need some friends.

I know that requires "work". But my gosh, hold. You are funny, interesting, smart, charming--and you even have a lot of "pluck" regarding certain things (remember the walk in women's shoes?).

You deserve to laugh, and be lighthearted sometimes. To be celebrated and enjoyed by friends, and with friends.

I think that would be the best kind of help you could get.

Does it matter that people here care about you? :-(

I wish I could do something for you.

Me 42
H 46
Married 12 years
Two children D9 and D4 !