I never said she was the monster. Or the villain. For years I have said only that we are incompatible. She is a good person. I used to be a good person.

I understand I am the villain. Because I do what I do knowing it causes pain. To both of us. And I choose to do it anyway.

I am a cutter. Cutting my soul. I don't see myself ever stopping.

What I have stopped is being a real H to her. What I am doing is trying desperately to hide that fact. Makes it pretty stupid of me to admit it on a public forum.

When you can see it coming, duck!