I have 2 good reasons not to divorce her.

And I have plenty of reasons to live. If I choose to view them that way.

She cannot give me a reason to live. I have to want that for myself. Right now, I am more comfortable living with frustration and resentment and rage and misery. I am not comfortable living with success and satisfaction and joy. That needs to change. I wish I knew how.

When you can see it coming, duck!