It feels safer to be Eeyore. You will always find a reason to be Eeyore unless you choose to think differently.

You don't need that electric shock therapy to choose to think differently, Hold.

All you have to tell yourself to day is "Well, at least I still have a job." And get back to work.

Anything you tell yourself that turns you into Eeyore is exactly that--you telling yourself something. You have to figure out how to change your script. You can do that by choosing different thoughts.

Have you ever tried meditation, or T'ai Ch'i or something? Anything that is about surrendering thoughts, and releasing their power?

You can live differently. You can. It's like this part time job I took (one that I had also done years ago). The place is filthy... Because despite all the "training video's", people really don't believe it can be clean. I know it can be clean almost all the time, because I worked somewhere for years where it was always clean.

You have never experienced life differently, so it's hard to lean into it. But it's an option for you, Hold. Eeyore CAN morph into Pooh bear. Or Piglet.