Mrs. Hold kissed me on the way out the door this morning. Small gestures of Affection help alot.

I have no idea why things have changed between us. I have not been more attentive to her needs than before. But lately we are far closer to the marriage I always wanted than we ever have been.

I am trying hard to fight back the resentment and thinking "why did it take so long and why did I have to suffer so much and look how it has negatively affected my career and our finances (for which I bear much responsibility too)." We cannot reclaim the past. We can make a better future. Until the past few weeks, I did not believe that was possible. Now it seems it is. Amazing.

When you can see it coming, duck!