I like how you lie to yourself, right out in the open.

The way you try to manage your emotions through deception...chiseled and bony.

When really, your wife, acting from love, turns you on...and you speaking honestly, too, maybe.

Trying to turn yourself off of her and using her to do it...

And her asking for your appreciation and admiration...and you not giving it to her...cutting her off...

just like you see her cutting you off.

Yes, you are lucky.

Yes, she is lucky.

Yes, you lie. Interesting the way you do it, too.

Maybe she's stopped lying. She's asking for you to meet her EN and you refuse. Because she's not meeting yours (though she has).

What do you think? Close? Interesting?

That whole conversation wasn't about other wives...it was her saying how she sees herself loving you, and the way she doesn't want to act towards you...

So remember that when you lie, again, to yourself and say she doesn't think you earn enough, aren't successful, that you suck at life...

because she loves her lifestyle and attributes to you providing it for her...and she appreciates you, as husband and family man.

Even when you tell yourself she doesn't...and sometimes, she doesn't act from appreciation, admiration and awareness...

and sometimes, she's asking for the same and you deny her in the same way you see her denying you...

I think your wife is going first...and you are refusing to follow.

LA

PS--did you ever get the answer of what you did that was so bad to deserve constant, consistent punishment of yourself? I forget...