SM: correct.

I see how I posted 8 years ago when I arrived here. My wife is wonderful and I want to be in love with her and she with me. Not doing as well at work as I wish but hope to do better in the future and achieve my goals.

Now I post how I have no hope for my marriage or my career and can't wait to die. Not a good progression. I downloaded the list of psychiatrists covered by our insurance. Hopefully I will find the motivation to call them. Hopefully I am open to making changes in the tape playing in my head. I have never been, despite many courses of therapy over 30+ years. Maybe now I am ready.

Clearly, coming here during the day and playing video games at night to medicate the pain, but making no changes in behavior, is not a productive coping strategy.

When you can see it coming, duck!