Nope, no drugs or alcohol. I play too many video games, that is about it as far as vices. What I am addicted to is misery.

Yes, I am waiting for someone to wave a magic wand and save me. That is why I long for ECT. I am hoping if someone sends an electric spark through my brain, I will feel differently.

You say "all" a person needs is the ability to make a decision and plan. I am unable to do either. I have trouble deciding at restaurants and ice cream parlors. If you think I can make important decisions about my life, or plan for the future, you are mistaken. As my father in law says "when the going gets tough, Hold gets stupid". And he isn't wrong.

When you can see it coming, duck!