Hold I do not think you are metally ill. I think your self depreciating sence of humour has got the better of you.

You are like a person that checks into hospital and has operations when there is nothing wrong with them. Just in case.

Melody is right. You should just knock it off. You've had all the operations you need.

You now seem to be like a fat person that does not believe there is a skinny person inside. You can not expect to go from a fat person to a skinny person in a day, but it can happen. You only need to look at your wife.