Talk to Mrs. Hold about the kids. Helped her with her homework (her teacher hides the ball and hasn't updated some of the questions lately so web links and cites are outdated). Other than that we basically don't speak and don't spend any time together. When she talks to me she is snarky. The kids are starting to notice that she ignores pretty much everything I say.

I know we need UA time. I am trying to summon the courage to get back in the relationship. I am so conflicted. Time together leads to me wanting sex. I don't want to want sex. The sex we have is not bonding for me anymore. I feel worse after than before. I don't know how to raise that with Mrs. Hold without making it even worse. And I don't want to feel like a fool who meets her needs without asking for anything back in return.

When you can see it coming, duck!