Hold, after another yet another round of the same-old, I have to think that perhaps the way to address this situation is to do a brainstorming on what WOULD make you happy, or at least very content. It doesn't even have to be realistic.

What if you won the Powerball? Would that do it?
What if Mrs Hold transformed herself into a sexy, love-making minx?
What if your son invented the next social network site and became a gazillionaire?

At this point, I'd love to hear anything at all that would get you out of the gloom and doom scenario.

I have seen homeless bums that enjoy life better than you do.