Perhaps thinking is the problem.

You seem to now be making most of your decisions in the abstract. Which is fine, but can become problematic for people who have experienced many real failures, percieved failures or tend to be perfectionists.

These people tend to develop a bias, when considering choices, towards concluding failure is the likely result and thus stop doing anything.

I guess my point was instead of trying to think of what makes you happy, start doing things and see if any of them do make you happy.

Me 43 BH
MT 43 WW
Married 20 years, No Kids, 2 Difficult Cats
D-day July, 2005
4.5 False Recoveries
Me - recovered
The M - recovered