I mentioned it last night and she'll consider it. It didn't come without a snicker comment, "like marriage builders honey?" She offered gratuitous sex last night and I turned it down. I literally would prefer to have none quite frankly. She got defensive about it, baited me, and I reacted again. I can't do this anymore. I can't be the only one on this path no matter how much time we spend together. I explained how serious this subject is to me because honestly I don't think she believes it is.

The truth is my wife is my first choice to have a fabulous relationship with. Second choice is to divorce and pursue love elsewhere. Third choice is what we have now. On that note, I'm sick of hearing buddies who treat their wives like complete [censored] tell me about how much sex they are having. How is it that some wives take daily abuse and sleep with their husbands regularly anyways?