I find constant triggers that remind me that I have alot of pain to get over, even though my life now is full and happy. Even...or especially.....good things. I have a male friend who comes over and we have supper, watch movies, etc. He's great, cuz I know he'd like to be more than friends, but he's willing to take it easy. One night he helped me with dishes and I was so upset afterwards....kept thinking "why couldn't it have been like this with my x"? Knowing what I know about my x now, I know it wouldn't have and never will happen; and I need to move on with my life and who knows, this friend may even be the one. But meanwhile, I have to keep putting myself back together cuz I'm always coming unglued over the littlest things.