Hello. <p>It's late, so I'm going to be brief. My H and I had been maried for 8.5 years when he left. We both focused too much on education and career, and I think our relationship suffered because of it. He began traveling as a part of his job, he met a woman on his project, they hit it off, he wanted to be around her all the time, we fought about it more and more, and one night he didn't come home. <p>That was one year ago Monday. Since then, I went through a period where I took a leave of absence from my job (just couldn't concentrate at all). I convinced him to go to marriage counseling, but I discovered during counseling that he was still seing the OW. I refused to go back. In January, I decided to start getting on with my life. He got an apartment for 6 months, saying that he didn't want to make a longer committment because he wasn't sure he wanted to end the marriage, but he has taken no concrete steps towards reconciliation. I am not ready to file for divorce yet, although I have started dating and I have fashioned a life for myself that works without him. <p>We are friends. I see him and speak to him frequently. He tells me he misses me when I see him, and he always says he is not sure moving on is what he wants to do. His A with the OW is over, I believe. But he's still not moving one way or another. It's hard. I know you want some closure. If you're married to a guy like my H, however, you might not get it because he doesn't have the wherewithall to make this big decision. <p>The only closure you can have is by not worrying about what he's doing anymore. You have a life, and at this point, nearly half of it is behind you. Make the rest of it good. The life you thought you had is gone. Figure out what to do now. <p>I was just saying last night in fact to my H, who met me for dinner: At this point, after a year of trauma and getting over it and growing up, if I could wave a magic wand and put us both back into the marriage we had, erase the last year with all its pain and continue the marriage as it was before, I wouldn't wave the wand. I have loved this man all of my adult life. I love him still and I will surely always love him. But I still wouldn't wave the wand. I'll have my closure eventually. <p>Have a good night and hang in there. H.