Just checking in since I haven't seen you post in a while. How are you doing? How are your kids doing?

Hi Unsure!<p>Sorry its been a little while. Thanks for checking on me. Orchid had to tell me you were looking for me. She has been helping me alot these days. Via phone and as of tomorrow we will meet. With my H! Can you believe that? He said we should talk with someone, someone who can help us. I asked Orchid ( we live about 1 1/2 hours away) She said she would talk with us. Shes great. <p>Mind you, my H is in the fog pretty deep. So I dont know how much good this meeting will do him? But at the very least, it will give him ALOT to think about. I hope.<p>Im still hanging on. Sometimes by the skin of my teeth. You know, back and forth. This plan A stuff is sooooo hard. But I know what my focus is and Im not going to give up.When I feel like it, I just call Orchid and she calms me down. I am getting better and better.<p>Kids are not good. My D is sad and hurt. Baby is getting over an ear infection and is sooo clingy to me these days. Maybe he senses? I have been talking very openly with my D. With out sharing details of the A. If she doesnt get better soon, I just may have to jump to plan B. I need to put my kids first.<p>How have you been? Tell me the latest. I have been thinking about you too. Are you in plan B? WH is out but you still have contact? Let me know.<p>Where do you live? Im in Northern Cali.<p>God Bless you and take care!
PI

Oh PI -- So glad to hear Orchid is helping you. I'm having a blah day. Last Sunday the OW called my house "accidentally". So ridiculous since my WH does not live at home anymore.<p>I'm still planA "my bootie off" to quote you. It is so hard some days. Jennifer Harley also had me give him an "I desire" letter -- I don't know how to link posts, but you can find it from Thursday, May 23rd somewhere on here.<p>I haven't heard a peep from him since I gave him the letter. It was really a love letter with no disrespectful judgments or sarcastic comments, but a statement of what I desired for my marriage in the future should he decide to work on this. <p>Jennifer H. thinks I ought to go to plan B relatively soon. My WH is supposedly taking the next ten days off from work to "sort out his head" on our marriage and a whole range of other issues he is struggling with these days. He has many other bigger picture struggles with his job and other relationships in his life. At least he is acknowledging these, but he keeps feeling remorse and then slipping back into the fog.<p>I am actually going to go out by myself tonight. That is a BIG step for me. It's to an outdoor music event and is about 25 miles away. I'm a little bit hesitant, but I just cannot take being in the house alone again tonight. I am also running in my first ever 10K on Monday -- the whole thing will be televised on Monday, although you certainly won't see me as I doubt they'll be showing the slow people. I took a 2 hour hike this morning which really helped.<p>I am so sorry to hear about your son's ear infection and your D's hard time. While I do not have children (long story) I have wonderful nieces and nephews that are my world -- boy age 1, girl age 3, twin boys age 8. They keep me on my toes and light up my world daily.<p>Keep plan Aing your bootie off. Best of luck with the meeting with you, your WH and Orchid. My thoughts and prayers are with you.<p>Oh yeah, almost forgot -- I'm in Colorado, but I used to live in CA and did a lot of work in the Bay Area. My WH main office is in SF and part of his A took place there (expensive hotels, meals, etc), so I don't think I'll be visiting any time soon.