Hi all,
Well this morning I was getting ready to go help my bro with some house stuff and as I was leaving WH asked to use my cell phone . I asked why? To call OW.
Boy did I want to LB.
Instead I said you know that makes me uncomfortable but if you have to go ahead. I still don't agree and I will never give up on us.
Please call her after I leave and make sure you are off the phone when I get home. I went to leave and as I was walking out I looked back at the house and he was doing a weird huggy thing on the window mouthing the words I love you.
I just waved and smiled and mouthed I love you back.
Am I insane? My session with Steve isn't until Thursday, I just wasn't prepared to handle something like this. After I first found out I told him cell phone was off limits to call her.
I am just sick about this and cried all the way to my brothers.
I couldn't have said no without LB-ing.
Please tell me I didn't screw up.
Thanks,
Layli

You did the best you could, hang in there. I know your pain. It just amazes me how a WS can say "I Love You" and then hurt us like this.

It amazes me too... one time in March H and I had SF... while I was in the shower afterwards, he went down to the computer and emailed OW. I nearly got sick when I figured that out.<p>Anybody have a clue-by-four handy?

Thanks so much for responding. I was so afraid I would log on and people would be telling me I was insane. Small update. We were getting ready to go out for dinner and I found a fortune from a fortune cookie in my pocket. He asked what it was. It reads. What you are planning will work out in your favor. I posted it on our bathroom mirror. He huged me and I smiled and responded with.
"You know how tenacious I am. Have I ever not had it work out to my advantage?"
He answered no.
I told him. I am not a quitter. I am a winner. My way of saying I am not giving up.
Thanks again you guys,
Layli

Layli -<p>You did the right thing if the alternative was to LB. Be proud of yourself it isn't easy but you are doing good.<p>Like JG's H my WW called OM after we had SF. I don't know what to say about all of this. I guess it just helps to know that most WS do some of the same crazy and inconsiderate things. I think they are in such denial of the pain they are causing (or don't feel they will be caught) that the stupidity of thier actions never sinks in (just too much fog).<p>I like the fortune you found (and what you did with it). Keep up the positive spirit.

As a WS (former) I am blown away by the concept of calling the OW in any way shape or form. Especially while attempting to repair my marriage. Maybe I missed the entire story. <p>Good luck!!<p>Riding the wave in PA!!

This is unbelievable!<p>You are one gutsy gal, Layli. Power to you!

Thank you guys so much for the reinforcement. She called today and rather than LB I left and helped my bro fix up his daughters room. He hasn't seen her in 12 years and we finally found her. I am focusing on that right now and just trying to do my best. I couldn't do it without you guys. Don't know if the fog is lifting or getting worse. I am just taking care of me.
I love you guys,
You are all my lifeboats.
Thanks,
Layli