Well, here we go. Tomorrow we leave on vacation. I am just excited to get away. I know I will have fun with my girls. Oh yeah, WH is coming too. He, even though he planned this, is less than enthusiastic. I think he is trying to break it off but is having big time withdrawls. I only LB once this week and it was in defense of my D when the OW harased her. I think that was justified. WH however, defended OW. My D said she saw them fighting later. Trouble in paradise?

I am still remaining calm and at peace. I know that if I had to say which way it would go right now WH would probably choose OW. But I am okay with that. I am happy and want to stay that way. I do not want the marriage unless my WH wants me. The kids are part of my package but the choice should be for me. We both deserve happiness apart or together. It has gone on long enough though that I wonder if it can be saved. One step at a time.

Although he is in withdrawl, he is being kind to me and attentive. WH does not want to talk about situation and I agree. There is plenty of time for that if reconcilliation is on the agenda.

Everybody keep cool and wish me luck. I hope to leave a lasting impression on him <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

RNR;

This is a good opportunity for you...you know what to do! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Have fun!!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I even bought a bikini for the trip. Modest version. My WH wanted to know what that was all about and I told him it was about me.

WH is getting a little possive of me. He is kissing me in public and holding my hand.

We shall see <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Thanks for the good wishes!