I decided to start a new thread since I'm starting a new life! Not to say I'm over my H, by all means NO, but I might as well make the most of this as I can.

I got here to my new home Friday evening. I have to say it's great to have people to talk to again and do things with again. I even found myself doing things I haven't done in 6 months, like going out by myself to meet people. I wouldn't go back home because I was afraid of running into this person, or that person. I had a huge group of friends who all basically dissed me when this all started. I woke up yesterday morning with the thought that I can be who ever I want to be now.

I still miss my H greatly, still haven't gone a day without crying. We were both on IM last night and it felt like he was in the next room, but I couldn't talk or see him. Luckily I had my friend to pull me out of the slump. For some reason I'm absolutely terrified of loosing my feelings for him and asking myself how long will I have to wait. I don't want to give up, I know great things will happen in God's time, but why can't it be in my time, like today! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I can relate to you so well. Waiting on god to do his will can be so hard when we want results now. Just remember that he has plans far greater than we can ever expect so let him do it in his time. When we try and take over and do it ourselves is when God steps aside and lets us foul up. I know it is hard but just keep praying everyday for your spouse and God will hear us and answer our prayers as he sees fit. He will always do what is best for us.

I pray for my wife and marriage everyday and he is working on it. I have complete faith that he is going to restore my marriage.

Keep the faith.

Love in Christ

Cajunky

TBO,

I'm so happy to see you made it to your new home safely and things are going well for you. You are handling yourself beautifully.

Keep us posted and keep the faith!

God bless!

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