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Hi, anyone available to talk... so much wanting to call H... wanting "us" to go out tonight...
Where is my magic wand? Feeling like a crazy teenager... wanting to drive by his house... just had a margarita..
considering going out anyway, even alone?!
Am I in danger of MLC myslef...? had it with being alone with these kids. and no husband who promised in sickenss and in health? etc. what happened? sorry, not at my best , trying to restrain the calls...
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Honey, wish I could, but I don't think it's a good idea.
You hang in there, be strong; you are better than you are feeling right now, and you WILL make it!
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hi space, I understand... I have just had it with his hang ups and refusals to talk to me for several days... I know I must look quite pathetic and he makes me feel, or I feel even worse when I call him and get treated like crap. I just took the kids to our country club... amazingly we are still members... h pays for this... and we had a nice swim... I had the margarita there and came home and made me another... I think I am going to call one of my girlfriends... no one seems to understand why I want this crap in my life.
Fact is I dont. I want my husband. I did not get married in order to ... have kids with someone and be left for whatever.
I know calling him, driving by, etc. will do no good. I am in such a sour mood.. that it would be kind of pathetic for me to go to a club... or anything. and my self esteem is so low from being rejected by the one I love... Lower with the last few days rejection.... that I feel even more of a louse...
My parents are mad at me and I basically got disinvited from going to the lake with them this wkend because I told my mom not to take my kids to get their haircut anymore... my mom did it, and then I got a little peeved.. but calmly...
Well for you guys that wonder about where I get my instableness when treated badly, etc... here goes mom's reaction...
she is telling me that ... I am a bad mother and I do not know what is socially exceptable.. or not, and that is why... my kids do not get their haircut on as regular a basis as she thinks fit... so therefore that is why she took my ys to haircut.. bascially because I am a bad mother to my boys, moms words exactly... well, you could of taken them all last weekend.. when I sd MOM I was at work... how could I take him, and who are you to decide when kids get haircut..
this all may seem petty... but my parents are helpingme too much... aka free daycare... so anyway... I am just sick over all their , well moms... ridicule of me.
OK, the boys are yelling at each other again... I get no thanks for anything I do... and boy would I love an adult friend... Oh, a husband that is?
thanks, honey
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Hi there Honey! if u r still up & want a chat send me your phone no via email callycocoa@hotmail.com
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hi and thanks... just emailed you wrungout.
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hi there just tried 2 phone ya but got answerphone will try again in 5 mins
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Hi. I hope you are feeling better and connected with someone. I understand the feeling for an adult male friend-it would be so great to feel like someone (male) was attracted to me-however, I know that would really confuse the issues plus it concerns me that I think it would make me feel better about me. I need to feel better about me
(but it does sound wonderful.
Take care of yourself.
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No- not wanting another adult male friend... just a friend. Wishing for a husband... my husband to help with these crazy kids! things are better this am! It is just .... if there were no kids here... i could go out and have a party too! Not that I even want to... but I do think my H left the responsibilities for the fun... ! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> THanks for the support! Not in the mood period for cheating, etc.... just in the mood for the end of this! Thanks wrungout .. it was just great to talk to you, and glad you are female... I feel better about that realm... nice to talk aobut our H's and see that they are both in similar situations.. My h is on holiday weekednw with college boys.. and he has a 10 and 3 yr old - 3 yr old has been asking about daddy... older son says his dad was always mean to him anyway... so we are better off without him ? Hugs and thanks to you wrungout.. you helped me feel better.. just to have some adultconverstaion and with someone who understands... I am so tired of the worlds attitude just dump him! I was down last night and even smoked a ciggerette... I dont smoke... I bought some when H first left... (and found an unopened pack in the drawer last night)- thanks for the support. H But
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Hi Honey,
Call me if you'd like. I live north of Houston, probably wouldn't even be long distance. See my signature line. WH came home 2 weeks ago, but haven't seen him in 3 days, says he is working.
I'm trying to decide whether to start plan B or not.
Email me at khil0311@yahoo.com if you'd like to talk.
P.S. I have 3 kids ages 15, 12 and 10 and I haven't told them anything yet.
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Honey,
i know how you feel. Last nigh I was so desperate to go my h, that I took the phone off the hook and watched movies. It gets so hard. I am alone with my two boys, my h is out partying it up everynight. No, I do not want to cheat, but I do not want to just waste my life away. I love my boys, but goodness adult converstaion would be great!!!!
Any time you want to give me a call you can. Email me and I will send you my phone numbers. Hang in there and keep telling yourself I can do this!!!!
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HI--- Funny.. my phone is broken now... just the thing for me... I am too cheap to run up the cell!... well I will make some calls, but not too many and not to H! or WS that is! ANyway... I am on my way to get a haircut and I know that will get my spirits up a bit... I have been having my kids play outside and that is good too... backyard.. has a great swingset my parents gave us.. and installed... (my h wouldnt have thought kids needed it)- but also... my os had his first to his memory lemonade stand... also diet cokes and water and made 7.25... hey we can make that money for the game cube!!!! right! I am very excited.. I want him to start learning the value of a hard earned dollar.. and he actually enjoyed it! He sat out there for 3 hours or more.. and he wants to do it again ... I just calculated it out for him that he could earn 150 dollars... if he works 21 days - anyway.. this is exciting... ! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> I was reading about kids and money in one of my magazines as I housecleaned yesterday and got the idea... I was always a hard worker , still am... except I feel limited by kids.. keeping me at home... etc. I started out with koolaid stands myself! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> Anyway, actually happy again today without the ws... he would probably be drunk anyway... or is, whereever he is... Thanks for the support.. will email all of you.. H
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thanks again friends.. I find it bizarre that my home phone is out... I paid the bill! Anyway.. I see a long black cord over my fence.. maybe there is some work going on in the neighborhood...? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> I love to talk on the phone... see that is the issue with h... does not like to talk... but the more I think about his cruel behavior the less I even care and start to want to file for the big D! Anyway.. trhanks for all of your friendship... I have my cell and free minutes after 9pm central time! Thanks for the support.. having a great saturday.. My hair looks gorgeous after my haircut and style!I am sooo happy and up after getting it done so nicely... I have curly hair and I had it dried and flat ironed straight and it is now flipping up on the ends and really cute ! Tonight I may need a night out... ! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> Anyway... I am thrilled..., my house keeps looking better as I have spent loads of time cleaning yesterday and now again today... I am happy! and thinking H is stupid... ! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> now not really , still heartbroken, but knowing I deserve so much better.. Hugs and thanks for all the friendship here. Honey <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />
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Honey
glad you like your hair cut. That always makes a woman feel good about herself!!
Try and have a good day tomorrow!
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Hey Honey! Was great to talk with you last nite & pleased to hear you sounding more positive. Your hair sounds great, it's always a great feeling when ya walk out of the hairdressers feeling like a million dollars eh!
Now about our chat...remember what you promised me nooooo relationship talks on the phone with ya H talking about the kids is fine but promise me you will not mention your relationship AT ALL!! That will confuse the heck out of him. ya see I believe that he feels threatened when you bring up the relationship stuff so if you can just back off don't even mention it, he will be expecting you 2 bring it up & I bet you will notice a difference in his attitude, the tone of his voice etc etc after the first phone call. I realsie that as you have small kids you have to talk with him, also will be interesting to see if he does have them for a whole week just how many times he needs to ring you!!!! BUT UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES MUST YOU DO THE RELATIONSHIP TALKING....OK will get down of me soapbox now! Have a great week & YOU GO GIRL!
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I agree!!!! Don't talk to him that has to do with anything except your kids. Not about his drinking...or how he has become so irresponsible <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> .....or how mean he is.... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> !!! He will wonder what the heck is going on!! You really need to try this....and I know that you can do it!
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Thanks again for the support... h is still off vacationing with some "new friend" while I take care of everything.. at least the "new friend" is supposedly male...some partier he is working for... must be nice to have such a good time... without the responsibility of your family... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />
I called quickly today and he sd he will watch kids on his return MOnday night at 740pm... gee, isnt he a big partier now.. he has been gone since wednesday and he is unemployed.. he is quite the college student nowadays.
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Hi honey! Quite the partier your H is BUT! remember if he is unemployed all this partying is costing him lots of $$$ & it will soon run out, now if he ends up having to borrow from his mates to carrying on having a good time they will soon get tired of this & he won't be such a popular guy any longer, then what will happen?? if you haven't LB by relationship talks on the phone & in person it could end up being YOU!!!!! that he turns to. So keep up the good work be as nice as you can & plan A plan A plan A ya butt off girl. Ok catchya later
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