My husband had an A while on a 2 month military deployment. He claimed that he loved OW and left me to be with OW. He came back to me a few days later, but after he learned that OW was pregnant (twins), he left me again. We lived apart for a few months, and I was moving on with my life when he came to me and said that he would walk away from OW and OC if I would give him another chance. We went to counseling for a while and things have been going really well on the outside, but I am still having a hard time dealing with things on the inside. Whenever he seems quieter to me, I worry about what he is thinking about. Is he thinking about her? Is he wishing he were with her or worrying about the OC? I try to speak up when I feel this way, and he is always very reasurring, but it is still so hard. Even the littlest things that I would never have worried about before make me crazy now. Am I losing it? Will it ever get better? I need some reassurance from someone who has been where I am now. I need practical solutions to help me stop worrying so much.

Breanna,

Please post at Pregnancy/Child board. There are much more MBer w/ your similiar situation.

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This is my 2¢. Has to be No Contact between OW & H ... even to the point where no contact w/ OC but financial support only. For you, trust has to be earn not given ... it is very crucial for you to communicate to your H about your feeling ... no LB but let H know ... -RH-