I want to be wined and dined. I want to get attention from someone. I want to go places and have a good time. Im getting tired of not having my EN's met. I asked WH if it was ok for me to be w/some one too. He said yes. But I know its wrong. This is so hard. He is getting all of his EN's met and I cant. Im sooooooo tempted to call my ex. We had major sparks. He told me he would always be there for me when ever I wanted him ,even if it was years from now . I know I left him for a reason, I just cant stop thinking about him. And there hasnt been one day that has passed since I left him that I havent thought about him. And one of my friends has this friend she wants me to meet. He sounds like a great guy all around. I can wait for that. But I do have to met him in a couple of weeks when she comes to visit. We are all supposed to go out. I need to have a good time. I miss how my ex(1st M) was with me. I was everything to him. Now Im nothing but a piece of old furniture that my WH cant wait to throw out and bring in his new one thats on hold.

PI

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by P I:
<strong>I want to be wined and dined. I want to get attention from someone. I want to go places and have a good time. Im getting tired of not having my EN's met. PI</strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Boyoboyoboy do I hear you!!!!

It is going on 2 years for me an I have no idea where the patience has come from, but yeah---not having the ENs met and dealing with their ego and selfishness....well, there sometimes is just no explanation for it.

I don't know that contacting your ex is a good idea or bad one. I think you probably know in your heart what's right.

I do know lots of us here at one time or another have said the same thing you have just said. At least you are in good company...sort of... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Good luck...

E

<small>[ July 16, 2002, 06:27 AM: Message edited by: Elad ]</small>

I say go ahead and contact the ex. Move on and start seeing other people... Its easier to get an ex back if you are seeing other people... It shows them you are ok without them and then they get curious about whether you are really interested in another person.
It is called jealousy...

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by P I:
<strong>.... I asked WH if it was ok for me to be w/some one too. He said yes. .... </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Hi PI <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> ... don't do it !. Most WS says that to lessen their guilt and give them justification to continue to do it. If you still want your M don't do quick short term relieve ... it is not good to your D. Dv first and stay away from any male for now, you are very venurable. You are very attractive and take it slow to find a good father for your kids down the road. Unless you want to turn your M as an open M ... then there is no point on working on MB. WS still sound at their selfish state. Focus on your current M and working on your part of the problem ... i.e. plan A. There is a time you have to move to plan B then move on ... -RH-

Thanks for the replys guys. I know contacting my ex is not the right thing to do, but guess what...I did. And it was actualy the best thing I did. RH, I didnt get a chance to talk to you too much when we went to lunch (because my D was there) but just to fill you in, Im ready for a DV. There is no plan B. I have completely made up my mind. There is just so much more to this A story. Im finding out way too many things that go back before the A. Basicly WH is just no good for anyone in my family and has way too much growing up to do. I stuck it out and put up with as much crap as I could, for as long as I could. I would be a fool to stay. He doesnt even want me anyway. So just to let you know Im not even working on my M anymore. I cant allow myself to get hurt anymore.

As far as my EX goes, it was a good thing because he helped me by reminding me that Im not this piece of poop that my WH says I am. Im worthy, Im better than this, and my children and I dont deserve this. He never said any of this but I felt so good after talking to him that it just gave me that final push. I was there, I just needed that push. It was nice to talk w/him. We got some things cleared up between us. Orchid warned me good. I listen to everythig she tells me.Except I didnt do the poop in the bag thing he he he. But I trust her with all of my heart, she is like family to me. "Ohana".

So I think my story with this [censored] is ending. And Ive just gotten so tired of all of this. Im loking forward to being on my own, single, and independant. I need that right now. But yes, EN's I want too. Now would be nice.

PI

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by P I:
<strong> .........Orchid warned me good. I listen to everythig she tells me.Except I didnt do the poop in the bag thing he he he. But I trust her with all of my heart, she is like family to me. "Ohana".

So I think my story with this [censored] is ending. And Ive just gotten so tired of all of this. Im loking forward to being on my own, single, and independant. I need that right now. But yes, EN's I want too. Now would be nice.

PI</strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Dear PI,

I know right now you are undergoing a tremendous strain more than you can post here. But please remember this, the info you get from family, friends and even here is just that info. You know your situation and with this info along with earnest prayer you will make a decision when the time is right to do the right thing. No one can or should do that for you.

There is a wise saying: "....do not put your trust in nobles, nor in the son of earthling man to whom no salvation belongs ....." The verse goes on to say to trust in God. I ask that you please place your trust there. The rest of us will help where we can. ok?

Yes, for what we have been through many here feel like for now this is a part of our Ohana. We do get comfort and support here. But let's not put too much reliance on others and let this place and all our other support groups help us strengthen ourselves so that when we need it, the inner strength is there.

There is another vs conveys the thought: '......if God is on my side who can stand against me?'

take care,
L.

<small>[ July 20, 2002, 02:00 PM: Message edited by: Orchid ]</small>

Good luck and best wishes.

Hey PI, sory it's ben so long since I've written, I've been really busy lately. I just read your latest postings, I'm saddened to think that you have made this decision. Please pray about it before you make any more decisions!
I also just recieved an email from your WH, kinda wild, are you ok? Where are you? Can you send me a phone number where you will be over the next little while? I'll call you! Email me soon!
I'll be praying for you.
God Bless and comfort you at this time.
Monika