Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Not sure that helped yet.

Dancer

<small>[ August 15, 2002, 08:39 AM: Message edited by: Dancer ]</small>

I love you!

That help at all?

I'm just an email and half a world away.

E

Hugs {{{{{{{Dancer}}}}}}}

I'm sorry. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Does that help?

I've messed up a lot of lives (DH, me, DS, OMW, etc.). I am working to fix all that, but I regret all that I've done. I am doing well though and in great recovery.

In any event, we are here for you. Take care, and {{{{{hugs}}}}}} again. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I'm just here to say, "HIYA!!" and to give you a little butt nudge <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> .

You cannot control others' actions!!!

Punch a few pillows, break a few pencils, get the anger out girl! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> But then you need to refocus and get back on your plan. It's all about you hon. All you can do is be the best you you can be!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

And don't EVER forget... we're always here for you.

((((((((( Dancer )))))))))

P.S. How's the little one?

Karen

HI again

From the replys you all gave me you seem to know EXACTLY where im at and probably an idea of whats going on. I cant say much on this forum but that wheneva I suspect stuff I automatically want to approach them and my mind races with things I would say, yet, I know that theres no point.

JTW - I will email later. Love you too!!!

Tutter - Im glad I dont have any regrets like you do, that must be hard, but sometimes I regret not having any regrets, make sense?

Karen - Little one is doing well - 11months old now, still crawling, laughs with me alot, we have many precious times together. Thanx for the nudge, you are right, you knew what was going on in my head. Sometimes I get scared that he knows I still love and want him and that he might use that to do what he wants.

Dancer

<small>[ August 15, 2002, 08:42 AM: Message edited by: Dancer ]</small>

I just wanted to know I am thinking of you and your baby , and I am sorry he did this.

Honey <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Dancer:
[QB]HI again

"I may not be as beautiful and trendy or have as big breasts as her, but its my prayer that my beauty will come out from within. Man looks at the outside, God looks at the heart, and a truely beautiful woman has a beautiful heart"

Physical beauty is only skin deep. True beauty lies within one's heart. Don't beat yourself up over physical beauty. Don't allow yourself to ever think it was your physical self that caused him to do what he did. There are many wonderful men that look for inner beauty first and when they find it in a woman they see both physical and inner beauty.

Beating the OW up in your mind is ok. Screaming at her and cursing her in your mind is ok but acting on any of this in reality would only lower you to her level. Your better than the trash the OW is.

I'm building my relationship with God and in doing so I'm slowly but surely beginning to heal from the pain my h has caused me. The closer our walk with God is, the easier all of this is. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Hold your head up and hang in there.
My prayers are with you <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Sad Angel;
NOT all of us guys only see the outside.My better half may have a weight problem but she is beautiful both inside and out and I have told her so. She is a good lady and I love very much.

231

You know, I felt gorgeous today.
Hey, Im about 10 years younger than OW, thats gotta count! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> I laugh all the time, have creative talents, have a great career behind me with new opportunities opening, I have a lovely warm cosy home, Im a good cook, sewer, lover and minister, my child is growing into a beautiful boy and has a gorgeous nature,Im a motivated and successful person and Im surrounded by so many wonderful people that love me, pray for me, support me, and hope for the brightest future for me.
Im still cranky, but Im getting over it. Im a winner, because I know where the white line is, and I know I'll get there. Just not too sure how to get thru some of the obstacle course at times.

Thanks for hearing me out.

Dancer <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

<small>[ August 15, 2002, 08:45 AM: Message edited by: Dancer ]</small>

"Sad Angel;
NOT all of us guys only see the outside.My better half may have a weight problem but she is beautiful both inside and out and I have told her so. She is a good lady and I love very much."

231
I didn't say ALL men see only the physical beauty. I am sorry you mis-read my post.
"There are many wonderful men that look for inner beauty first and when they find it in a woman they see both physical and inner beauty."
My remark was not an attack on men.
<img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Hang in there matey, and keep praying. You are very beautiful we can all 'see' that!

See ya matey avagoodweekend!

Gidday Dancer,

Yes, you have many qualities that shine, never forget that.

In my worst times, I recalled all the horrible stuff stbx said about me, and how I had come to believe them.

Being away from him, I realise that the good in me is still there and always was. He just lost sight of it.

You be strong for that little tacker of yours, and keep that upbeat attitude about yourself.

Love and light,

Jacky

Well, talk about riding an emotional rolacoaster, I still believe in who I am, but this week has to be one of the loneliest eva. And its not PMT time either. Everyone seems to be busy, tired, unavailable and all I want is some company, someone to talk to.

Heres a sop story - Im at home all day with my wee one, just the 2 of us (and we do have fun) then he goes to bed at 7 and its just me. Every nite lately. Yes, I got things I do like playgroup, craft morning, church etc, but I guess Im missing my old life at the moment - I was married (properly), a school teacher, and a youth worker, and childless, so I had a fun and busy life. I miss it. I hate this lonliness, I guess thats why Im on here more lately. But I love my boy and would never trade back, Im just greiving the past I guess. Im slowly getting back into things. Im just glad you guys are here to keep me company. I feel angry at times that WH can spend time with people at work, go home and either sleep or go out as he pleases. My best friend is moving across the other side of the country in sept, Im going to miss her. Still feeling beautiful, but wish someone special would make the most of me.

Dancer

Ps
SAd Angel - I knew wat you meant.