Just wanted to drop a line to let all my "friends" here know that I have decided to wipe my hands clean of my WH. I'm done, finished, and want no more of him. I'm 25, soon to be 26, I have a life, and since he has decided that he doesn't want that life to be with me, then I deserve so much better for me. Since my move everything has come into focus. Looking back on things, I feel used, I see all the hurt he caused me through emotional and physical abuse throughout our relationship, and most importantly, I remembered the only reason why I married him, because I tried to break things off with him before we got married but he tried to commit suicide in front of me, then attempted to kill me too for breaking things off, said if I can't have you, no one can have you. I hope one day to be able to erase that memory from my head, but still to this day I hear it so clearly. I want no more of that, I deserve so much more than that, I am happier right this very moment than I have been in the last 9 years of my life.

Moving on is feeling so great, and I can't wait for the divorce hearing! }:-)

You sound like you are a very strong person. This decision for you must have been very difficult. You are still young and have all of your life in front of you.

With all of this that has happened and your decision, do you really feel great? I hope so, because it gives me quite a bit of hope for my future.

I really do feel great. I have a sense of freedom like I've never had before. I'm taking off to the beach this weekend with a close friend of mine just for the hell of it. I am completely free to be me now, I can be who ever I want to be. It's awesome, I'm do no longer under a dictorship relationship where he pulled me to do whatever he wanted done, with my feelings not considered. I've really wanted out of the marriage for a long time, and we seperated back in January. In February he told me he was seeing someone else and I went haywire, now I know the relationship between my H and OW started back on December 7. After 6 months of lieing and backstabbing betrayal, I'm done. I deserve someone who will treat me with respect, dignity, really take care of me, and truly loves me, will go out of their way not to hurt me, will never hit me, will never belittle me. Looking at it now, my H did the opposite of these things, and I'm done and feeling absolutely great!!!!!!!! I can breathe again and no longer have to live my life walking around on egg shells making sure not to upset the angry beast of my H.