Yes, thats right, thats how Im feeling, TODAY. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Maybe next week I'll "feel" differently.
<img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />

Its tricky because I want to sit down and write my goals, but Im obviously in no frame of mind to do that. So I guess I just sit tight.

Today I just dont care where it goes. Im feeling vulnerable. I feel like Ive lost my vision of the committment I wanted to stick to. Why? Lots of reasons. Some reactionary to him, others just plain old tired. And Im a sad case too. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

So, I go about my business as usual.

Ah feelings (nothing more than feel-ings, trying to for-get my-y-y-y, feelings of luuuuuuuuuuuv) thats all they are and how dangerous they can be if they get in control. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Dancer

(((((((Dancer)))))

Take a break...don't worry about anything today...just pamper yourself...get to feeling better...

Dancer,

You seem like a dynamic and special lady and I hate to see anyone having a down day. Sure hope your weekend improves.

CWMAC - thanks for the cyberhug, I thought you might see me as a loser after having a go at confusedasyou.

Hurricane - I had a great time in church this morning in worship and had a friend over this afternoon. I am now taking your advice - chill out, stay disconnected for a while, then business can resume as per normal.

Tornheart - Me? Dynamic? Whered you get that idea from? Special? yes, Im very special and some lucky guy is going to have the blessing of growing old with me one day......

So, can ya take breaks from Plan A every now and again? And if so, how?

Dancer

<small>[ July 21, 2002, 01:42 AM: Message edited by: Dancer ]</small>

Hi Dancer, I feel like this sometimes too. I just go with it and don't do anything major till it passes. Then I get on with it again. Hope you're feeling better!

Dancer I can tell by you post that your dynamic and the name you choose must say a lot about you. You are also a very special lady and must always remeber that.
Just seeing the name dancer I can picture this striking lady that has beautiful legs and a grace and charm to rival the most sophisticated Southern Belle.

Tornheart

what sweet compliments <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="images/icons/blush.gif" />

Dancer

Sorry to break up the flirting!! LOL <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> Just kindin' of course. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Dancer,

I am feeling like this now myself. It is a good sign that your lovebank is near empty. Time to get back to basics and start thinking about why you do want to stay in the M. At times like this (happening quite frequently for me now) you need to think about all of the wonderful qualities of your H and all the pleasant memories and fun times. Focus on these and then give your Plan A a break. Take a few days off thinking about the M or working on yourself or checking the forum. It will help recharge your batteries. Do something fun that you like instead of thinking about this stuff.

When you come back, get your Plan B letter drafted and ready. It is dangerous to be so low in your love bank. You need to remember that Plan B is all about protecting your feelings for your WH.

Dancer,
So sorry you're feeling this way. You have been so wonderful about answering my posts and the posts of others.

I want to give you a little encouragement about Plan B. I feel such a peace now that I am in Plan B. Yes, I do feel emotional and all that at times, but it is not something I feel EVERY minute like I did in Plan A. My lovebank was also draining, and I couldn't keep from lb'ing, so I moved on. Plus WH showed no signs of wanting to work on M.
It's something you do for YOU. I am focusing on myself and my 3 precious kids. (and my big move from house to tiny apt. looming ahead.)
I was very scared to go to Plan B, it's been only 2 weeks, but I feel like i'm in control this time.

God bless you, Dancer. You're in my prayers.
KK

Bring those bellybuttons over here and I'll see if I'll take ya.

E <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

You mean I'm not suppose to flirt in here. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />
Suppose that is one of the problems my wife has with me. She complains that I flirt in front of her...yet I disagree. I respond that I was just being nice. Think it has something to do with The Southern Charm coming forth naturaly.

Dancer do understand how you feel at times. It is an ongoing battle that I face every day. My wife tell me she loves me all the time she tried to do things to make me happy yet I'm never happy. I'm in my mid 30's own a succesful company, have a place on the coast and use my aircraft to travel back and forth. Yet I become depressed on a regular basis about my failures in life. Wish I had some sound advice, but all I can offer if the fact that I try to think positive every day and most days it works this just happens to have been a bad week for me.
When I find myself in one of these moods I just work on one task just to get something done so I feel productive and so often that helps.

Dancer I am serious in that just reading your post you have a lot to offer any man and they should be jumping at the chance.

REading this post after all LizzardGizzards posts about her recent dating experience I feel like my probs are pretty average.

Tornheart - so, youre mid 30's (im 30) - good age, got a successful business (not a strip club I hope) AND an aircraft (it it powered by batteries or thermals?) PLUS you are such a sweet talker. Sounds like you'd be snapped up quick yourself. You live on the COAST???

Liz - MELONS girl, MELONS!!! Let the bellybuttons die a natural death (well, a natural plastic surgery death).

Chameleon and KK2002 - I have a Plan B letter already, did it months ago, but......Im not ready to accept divorce is an option yet. Ive been taking that break I need and feeling better. I bought a great book by Tenny called Gods Eyeview - its about worship. Plus Ive been on the phone inviting people over - booking up my time. But Divorce is something that has been going thru my mind. I guess I just want to feel nothing.

Dancer

<small>[ August 15, 2002, 08:32 AM: Message edited by: Dancer ]</small>

Well, how do I begin...the business is actually a rather unique undertaking. It's a stip club that is located inside a DC-6 that I fly over the coast. Well maybe not but its a thought. Now there is a guy who runs charters off the Cali coast for people wanting to join a rather exclusive club.

But no, I have a much more boring and respectable company, that has holdings in 3 diverse fields. Though this is pure luck for I was fortunate to be born with the title President. So I do rest on the work of those before me...yet not lazy for I have expanded operations.

The aircraft does operate off a battery...would be hard to start the big fan upfront with out the battery. W does refer to aircraft as my metal mistress.

I will admit to being a flirt and rather good at it. Again its the Southern Charm. GGgranddady was a Calvary officer during the war of northern aggresion and I have always felt I was born 150 years to late and that I was also meant to lead a charge of calvary against the dreaded and evil yankees, in order to protect the virtues of our fine Southern Ladies. For a Lady should always be shown respect and admiration and protected form the evils of the world. Though the world has changed on me whether I wanted it or not. Last time I climbed aboard Charger and raced up I95 swinging my saber I had deputies from 3 counties after me, but Charger held true and took me over a fence and through the swamps to safty. Now I just try to stay away from the deputies...did notice they changed uniforms... for the white jackets they are wearing now just don't blend in as well in the swamps and that big white jacket with the long arms and all the buckels they keep trying to out on me makes a loud ruckus as they try to sneak through my swamp to catch me. Although since they meet delbert(pet gator) they havn't been coming around as much.

Dancer sure hope your day has been a good one...while I might be a bit looney this was just a feeble attempt to make you smile. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Dancer,

Sure hope I did not scare you away.
Do hope your having a good day.

Tornheart - Im not scared. Im amused. Well, Ive got a pet giraffe (Gerry seinfeld) that I brought back from one of my safari trips last year. Its abit difficult keeping him happy in a two bedroom townhouse, but he gets on well sharing a room with my little 11month old. Its probably the Noahs Ark theme he feels comfortable with.

My H builds and flys remote planes/gliders which really impresses me. Hes always wanted to get his pilot license, and Ive tried encouraging him for so long, but he probably wont. I wish he did, he would be a great pilot. I wanted to be an Airforce photographer when I was 18 - go up in those jets and take pics - how cool, but chances were slim in getting in without having to work in an office for 4 years first. But Im still into fighter planes and photography (separate passions).

Hmmm.........just talking about this brings so many special memories of my H to mind. Better stop there.

Have a sweet day.

Dancer

Would encourage anyone to learn how to fly...gives you such freedom and while it is not cheap a ticket to fly last a lifetime.

Wife flies with me quite a bit...its one of many things that we enjoy doing together.

Have never flown a RC aircraft but not sure if I could.

Hope your having a good week.

Dancer,

Just checkin' in on you. You sound much better.

Aint' it funny about how thinking about the good memories helps the soul. Keep thinking about the good things in life.

I bet you have quite a bit to be thankful for. I know I do. The only thing turned upside down right now for me is the M. When you look at all of the past and all what the future can bring, it is amazing how small a part these tough times are in our lifes.

Chameleon - I wish I had the same view as you. Im looking from a direction where H is separated from me and for me I just cant seem to see past it most the time. EVERYTHING sends sad thoughts thru my mind - I cant seem to enjoy much because something always reminds me of him (sorry, crying now) a beautiful sunset, a red bmw, families enjoying the fresh day, picnics, parties, pregnant ladies, roses, Sundays, seing families in church together......its just so painful. All the good things in life are just so painful, I hope those who have it good dont take it for granted because I envy them (really sobbing now). You may be having a hard time with your W, but shes still there. Youre so lucky - you get another chance, I never did.

Tornheart - i feel like your name.

Dancer

Hi Dancer, I know what you mean... wishing my h would give me a chance... he tells me if I just stop acting crazy and he can be convinced I am not emotional... etc. then he can come home... GEE, that sounds nice H... I just wont let any of this bother me at all?

THanks so much, HONEY <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />