((((((((( Dancer )))))))))
I'm sorry that you're feeling so down. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> Keep in mind that if the roller coaster loop de loops are getting to be too much, you've always got that option to get off of it.
I was always a great one for the LB's too. I can look back on myself now and laugh at the way I acted, but I can also see how much damage it caused our road to recovery.
Focus on your goal!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> No matter what the outcome of your M is, it is most important that you become a better person here. LBing won't help you to reach that plateau... it only hinders your arrival.
Your H is with an OW. Whether or not that relationship is EA or PA is somewhat irrelevant. My personal opinion is that I would bet that it's already a PA, but he can't fess up to you about it yet (b/c of a guilty conscience? maybe).
I'm glad that you're coming here to vent about this. I hope it is helping you to stay on the MB track. And you know what? Your H has caused his own recent sickness. Sure, you may have contributed to some of it before... but you were also sick then too. Stand back and look at that part of your story, and how your H is such a typical WS!!! This fog thing is really too much to deal with sometimes. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> Looking at it all from a humerous perspective is sometimes the best medicine.
Take care of yourself and your little one. That's all you can do.
Karen