Well, the weekend wasn't too bad. We got along quite well, with little incident. There were a couple of moments that seemed to be getting stress filled, but we handled them well. It was just a busy weekend. I was on edge because I didn't know what to expect, but DH didn't seem to mind my "are you ok"'s too much. We got a long well, had some very good conversations about our future, our love, etc. I thanked him several times for talking with me about things, and I also thanked him for not leaving me. Yesterday at the Gravity Games I watched his eyes a couple of times, but I was pretty much ok. He was good about me. He said he didn't watch me once (as regard to other guys).

Now, today he has a total attitude. He ordered a palm pilot on e-bay (which me, his brother and father were paying for for his b-day). Well, it hasn't come; was ordered and paid for on 7/23 and the guy it was ordered from has yet to return e-mail or phone calls. So, he is rather ticked and full of tude. I've been doing all I can to try to help remedy the situation and I told him if we don't then we'll get one somewhere else. In any event, he said no. He said if we get this one great, if not fine. So now he's in a sort of poor me (I hate saying it that way because I feel really awful for him about this) state.

Then he asked what I was doing for lunch. I told him where I was going and he asked with who. I told him my girlfriend. He asked about her not working downtown and I said she has a new job down here and has to check her mail at the P.O. box right by where we are going for lunch. Then he asked "why are you going so late." This question had a sort of acqusatory tone. I told him because she had to go at 12:30. He said, it's just that you used to go late all the time (with OM). I told him for what it's worth I'm not meeting anyone else. He said "I know", but didn't sound too convincing.

Ok, ok - I realize I don't deserve his trust, but damn it why does he have to sound all acqusatory towards me because he has a tude about something else?!? I'm just a little frustrated and sort of lost. I'm not sure what to say to him. I don't want him to have triggers about me because he is vulnerable right now. Funny thing is that I called and left him a message this morning almost in tears about how much I miss him today and just wish I were at home with him.

Anyhow, thanks for letting me vent. I'm sure things will be good later, I just have to keep my cool and my head on straight. Thank you all for your help last week in my stressed moment. You are all truly wonderful.

Ok, the day is getting better. DH has calmed down a lot. I have time on my hands so I have been looking for a new hand held for him. Have talked to him a couple of times and he was in a much better mood. I knew this would pass, but I needed to vent, and I knew you guys/gals wouldn't mind. Thanks for listening/reading.

He is IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

Ok, so I finally talk to the guy they (DH and his brother) bought the hand held off of. He was really nice about it. He said they are good for the product but they are slow. He said he'd have it to us by the end of the month, hopefully be able to get it to us by the end of the week.

So, I'm excited, right. I have good news and figure DH will be very happy to hear. I call him and he is less then happy. He wants it faster. He is going out of town in 2 wks. and wants it for then. He said it's no good if he gets it after he gets home. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> What's he mean no good? He wants a $150 hand held for a 4 day trip?!? I thought he wanted it in general. Urgh! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

Then, my high of making progress comes crashing down. He is rather down about it, and I just try to stay cool. We get off the phone and I tell him I love him and he says ok bye. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> No thank you, no love you, nothing! Why did I bother? I should have just left the two of them to fend for themselves with it. URGH!

Hi Tutter,
I am glad things a looking better this afternoon. I hope you get the Ebay palm pilot you ordered. That has always scared me about Ebay. Good luck Tutter...you are doing awesome! BTW, I love your sig line!
BH

Hi Tutter,
Sorry you must have been writing post as I was! I hope things will get better later on. Hopefully he will see things more clearly and get a grip!! Hang in there tutter. You really are doing great.

BH

<small>[ August 05, 2002, 04:22 PM: Message edited by: brokenhearted ]</small>

Boy do I love this man or what!?! You are probably all tired of reading me here, but I have to get it out.

So, I call this guy back and ask him to try to make sure it gets out pronto so DH has it before his trip in 2 wks. He said he'd get it to us before 2 wks.

I call DH back to tell him this and he seems a bit more mello about it, but still no thank you or anything. Oh well, I didn't do it to get the thank you, but it sure would have been nice. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Thanks for listening.

Thank you BH for taking the time to reply. I know I am a roller coaster right now, but I just had to vent. Thanks for listening/reading.

Oh, glad you like the sig. line. It has helped me through some moments, and I figured it could help others.

Thanks again.