How are things going with you and hubby? Don't read much here, mostly on divorce/divorce. Our situation is getting uglier by the day.

Just wanting to know how things are going, and really enjoyed talking to you on the phone. Wish I could be happier now, but the actions of SNL are getting uglier by the day. He finally told me yesterday in a 2 second conversation, that the lawyers told him he has to follow the rules. Don't really know what he plans on doing, but at interrogation yesterday at my lawyers office, he didn't have paperwork that was to be brought, and was not consistent with his answers.

Trying to be stronger everyday. Realizing that SNL is a mixed up man. There is still love for him, but I think it is now a caring love. Wish I could help SNL, want to do things for him, but was told let him get his stuff together himself. He needs to know how to take care of things himself. Been told I have been his backbone for all these years, now he has to go solo. Still tough, with the history we have had. But I now know that I want to move on, and be me.

SNL will never change, he will be the messy person he has always been, and a controller. Seeing daily that he is trying to control me and gets angry when he cannot tell me what to do. I do so want to help this poor man, I do so want to be there for him, but I am moving on now. No need to shed anymore tears, none to shed, been a dry eye for many many weeks.

Found out the lies are continuing to this day at the interrogation yesterday. Why he is still lieing is so hard to deal with? Why doesn't he see that God is not happy with his action? But, I cannot change him. He will have to change himself, and be the person he wants to be.

Life is scary being a single mom. I don't have a job, and probably won't for a long time. The physical abuse SNL did to me has been a slow progress towards recovery.

Would like to talk to you Orchid, SNL has not paid for our longdistance phones. So I am unable to call long distance. I am not getting alimony, still trying to survive on $181 a week, with 3 kids eating here and living here. Plus the animals, SNL doesn't care, doesn't ask how I am doing financially, just does his things and eats and goes to the gym, buys things for himself. I am having to go school shopping with our youngest, and what about food for the table. This is so ugly. Anyways, my e-mail is Tazziblack@hotmail.com. Would like to talk, thankyou.

Hi C2m,

Good to hear from you and you know what? You are sounding stronger. Sorry SNL is taking a turn for the worse but now it is not your secret anymore. All this is coming out in the open for more than you and MB to see. Life eventually does that and if we hang in there we are able to pick up and move on. Remember, living with SNL or not is your choice. He does not have that choice, he has to live with himself. Like we all have to live with ourselves. I think that piece of info has helped me survive.

I have long distance capability but one of our phone lines went dead today and my H is trying to work with the local phone company. We just changed local service providers and this is just way to coincidental about why one line is dead. No response yet.

I will e-mail you later. Right now I am helping an MBer locally. She is a young mom with a 1 year old baby and a 10 year old daughter. A bit rough for her. The MIL may have met the OW and sounds like it might be ok for the A to happen PA/EA and all right in her home. Not sure. This BS MBer is having to work through the court system right now and has me pretty busy.

Wow, I am really using all the info I learned here to help her. Even my H is disgusted with what her WS is doing. This jerk could make SNL look good. Really!!! He is under 30 years old but acts more like a 3 year old. Sound familiar???? LOL!!!

Take care, I will get with you soon. How is your MIL? Are you still going to physical therapy?

L.

Thanks for your reply, and will look forward to your e-mail. Life is rough right now, but yes I am stronger. See you later.

Hi thinker...

I was wondering about you and SnL just the other day... put up a prayer...

You sound stronger... that is GOOD!

Take care of yourself and children...

Cali

Cali - I was stronger, but have fallen in the deep depths of despair tonight. I don't know what has gotten into me, depression, low selfesteem, I don't know.

SNL is a difficult man, and this is not the man I married. He is spending $2500 to have a big semi moved in on the property he is on. He is going to put all his stuff in that semi van. This is nuts, but there is nothing I can do. As far as spending the money, I will have to explain this to my lawyer, so why am I not getting enough money to live on, when he is able to buy all this stuff. This is bazaar, anyways, I really need to go. I am not feeling very good about myself, and just wanted to say Hi, will talk to you later. Just wanting to be by myself right now. But thanks for coming in, will respond later.