You're welcome Marie. Keep reading and keep posting. Check out some of the suggested books for recovery. Very interesting and alot of help.
I didn't find this site either until the month after I discovered my H's affair. If I had found it before, I would have handled discovery so much differently. But then again, prior to D-day, I had no reason to search infidelity sites, did I. Nope, not us!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />
Marie, I don't think I had a really good day that entire first year. It was soooo hard. I was consumed, obsessed with what had happened, and sooo angry. I was incredulous that MY H could REALLY have done this. It was on my mind 24/7.
And I was mad at me. So disappointed in myself. Not only for having been blind for so long, so naive and trusting,,but then, to top it all off, to allow him another chance!! What happened to my convictions? "Cheat on me once and you're outta here!" He knew that! I'd always told him that. And now here I was,,backing down on my word. Eveything seemed upside down.
Marie, it's hard work, rebuilding your marriage. There's no getting past that. But I'm glad we made the effort and are together today.
You're going to meet lots of people here. Some you will really identify with, some you won't. You're doing great responding to your posters. It encourages people to respond to you if you at least acknowledge their reply, even if it's just with a "thanks for reading and caring."
Hang around Marie. You've found a good group of caring supportive people unfortunately all in similar situations. Good luck to you!!
