Am I going crazy?

About 6 weeks ago I discovered my SO “EA & PA” and was devastated, for almost three weeks as he kept saying, “it wasn’t going to work out, that the trust was broken and it was never going to be the same!” I tried, since getting on early into this MB site, to be patient and calm, he never had to lift a finger for forgiveness, since I knew I had driven him to this (Believe me I did!) I’ve done all the work. All the talking, pleading and trying to fill all his EN! Last week he advised me he wanted to try, but in MY confusion I told him I wanted him back when he was sure of his feelings and not out of obligation, so I left my home! He spent the weekend with the OW and on Sunday advised me that he was having a horrible weekend and wanted to give our relationship a try. He asked me about my counseling and even asked to go! Monday night he’s cell phone rang and a woman asked for him (IT WAS HER!), they talked very briefly and she hung up on him. The next day he went to his first C session, in which the counselor advised him he had a rough road ahead and he had to make a decision of what he really wanted, Is this help?

Now here is my problem, he doesn’t want us to move in together, he says he wants to take it slow, VERY SLOW! But I can feel him pulling away, again. He doesn’t call, I have to call him and when I’m with him he’s like millions of miles away from me! I just called him since he works midnights and he’s not home or answering his cell, which leads me to believe his with the OW, today?

How much can one human take? How much can one heart take? How can I draw him out of this, should I continue to call him and asked to see him? Should I make plans for the both of us or just wait for him to ask? God, I don’t know what I am doing; I’m incredibly LOST & HOPELESS!

What am I doing wrong? Is this normal?