HI,
I was right you are a night owl. Just wanted to say hi, and let you know I am feeling better and better about things. Things aren't getting better M-wise but I'm getting better. You have helped me sooooo much. Thanks. I am so excited because I really am not to anxiety ridden about H coming next week, before when he would come I was a basket-case for weeks. I really think I am going to make it. And it is funny the futher we get away from reconciliation, the more I think it is possible. Is that weird?

Anyway just wanted to say HI. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />
Sharon

Hi Sharon,

Well in addtion to being a nite owl anyways, I live in CA so that gives me an advantage. The ones in HI post even later..... right Leilana and Twyla? LOL!!! They usually post on the recovery site.

There are a lot of us out here in CA (how sad but true). I am glad you are feeling better and stronger. When the time actually comes, it will still be hard but I think your preparing yourself as best you can will pay off in the long run.

My personal take is to make them wonder about you and the family as much as possible. That is something they can carry away with them when he leaves.

take care and you are doing good.

L.

Hi again,
"I wish they all could be California girls"

Yeah, I know I have some tough times ahead. I have ALWAYS known through this whole thing that I would be okay. It is just getting yourself to believe it. I am starting to believe. I actually feel lucky. There is so much pain and sadness here. So many that have such a rougher road, in comparison my burden is light, I have a great many blessing and I have the Lord helping me every step of the way. I hope he is not too tired from carrying my weight. I read something the other day about a woman who was facing an overwhelming challange she said "I found myself placing the overwhelming challenges and seemingly insolvable problems right at the feet of our Savior. He has a plan and a timetable......that is beyond my comprehension to comprehend. I want desperately to be an instrument in His hands-'the little pencil'-but He must do the writing. I can't even write the the alphabet by myself, and I have been trying to write volumes. As I placed my burdens at His feet, I replaced them with the seemingly small joys that are here in abundance. The darkness was gone." Carolyn Wold.

I don't know if you are Christian or a praying person, but this really hit me. Even if not it makes a great case for "letting go" of the things we can't control.

Anyway Orchid I hope you are having a nice day. Yes, I hope my H is wondering about what is going on here. I wrote him an email today about kids grades, S's football, nothing heavy. Is this okay? I want to stay in his life a little, I don't talk R or M with him anymore, but I don't want to disappear. Supposedly he said I was his best friend. I would not desert another best friend in a time of need. And I do think he is in a time of need. I want him to know I am here for him, I won't tell him that though, not as a wife or partner but as a friend who knows him better than anyone else in his life, everyone else has written him off, except OW I guess, and he doesn't have a good communication with ANYONE else. But I would like to keep the lines of communication open.

Well I will check around the board for awhile and see whats up, I get so many good ideas here.

Thanks
Sharon