Hi,
Just read your reply, on the signs of cocain, and let me give u some signs i noticed H has. Tried, unable to hold a job, legal problems, money not counted for, no food in house , well H buys daily, but never hardly buys alot of food. self centerd manipulation, denies, lies. U also ask me if H had sold anything no not that i know of. But i did find a check stub a few days ago where he had made 1300 hundred dollors bring home pay. I have never known of him bringing home that much. This was in i week of work. Also u ask me if my friends thought he might be on drugs, Well they really don't know what to think about him. But my friends H said he did not think he was on drugs, as he knows to be very true about cocaine and did not think my H was. But my girlfriend H is not really around my H that much. Cathy

I am glad you got the list. The truth will eventually manifest itself, Cathy.Just file it away in your memory bank and don't dwell on it for now.
In the meantime you need to keep reading the MB articles and trying not to do any LBing. I went back and read some of your previous posts and it seems that you allow yourself to get in a panic when things look questionable. Panic creates an atmosphere that hinders your reasoning abilities and it is very rough on the emotional and physical being. You have health problems that this can affect and that is not good for you. Please learn to take that deep breathe when things look odd and try to condition your mind to think reasonably. I do not tell you this to be critical of you but to help you. Instead of going off on a tangent, say a prayer for God to help you and calm you. When you talk with your H, try to do it in a calm not an accusing manner. Read LOVE BUSTERS,it can help.
I sincerely hope that your H is not having an A and that his behavior is not due to drugs. When we've been taken for granted and not shown affection and kindness it is easy to read things into a situation that might not be there. I am not saying he is or is not doing anything. I do feel that you looked at the card in a negative light and that he intended it to be an encouragement and something to help you feel better. We have all been guilty of doing that sort of thing so it is not just you. Hang in there and remember to keep it as peaceful as possible. You can do it and you can find ways to be ok whatever life brings your way. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Hi Kings kid,
Ty i know i need to just start taking care of myself, and let my H do what he hast to do, as i can not stop him either way. It just seems like when i say ok i a'm going to stop this and take care of me i find a nother thing out that really makes me wonder. Like last night i fount this in the history. loven2{1} last modified 9/25/02 6:28 am. Can i ask u what u think of this? Cathy