I don't know what to do. I can't stop crying, I know I have to go to plan b but I don't know if I'm strong enough. I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown, everything is just too stressful right now. I'm trying to take care of too many things and I'm falling apart. I just want to go away, I can't be strong anymore,I can't do this anymore. how can he be so cruel? How can someone hurt someone else so badly all for the sake of finding themselves? I just don't get it. I can't stand this pain any more. He can't figure out if he wants me and then he goes and finds another woman-2 of them now, how can anyone stand this.

It is terrible but you can make it. You are hitting the bottom right now. Just take a deep breath and get all out. Then take time to focus on what you can control. You reactions are totally normal. You are coming through a terrible time, I know. I will pray for peace in your life.

best wishes

ayslyne

I cant help you but i can identify with the feelings of hopelessness.It is a bottomless well of hurt and there seems to be no end in sight.My situation is different i didnt know what was going on for years. I weep for the loss of power to know where I stood.

You do have the power to know what it is you are dealing with and can make informed decisions .It looks to me as though your h has his fingers well and truly caught in the cookie jar he hasnt realised that there will be a price to pay.

At the moment you are the one who is paying the price for his happiness. He is chasing rainbows and all you can do is to wait for him to figure it out for himself.

In the meantime you are your no 1 priority take care of your health find i cry a lot more when i drink alcohol. I become tired and emotional and really distressed the next day.

Day by Day,

Hey, sorry to hear that you are in such pain...... I wish we could go over there and shake some sense into him for you. But you know what/???? He wouldn't care even if we did. You know Why? Because he is in the fog and totally dense right now.

Listen hon, you are going to cry. I just read your sig line and see that you are about where I was after my H moved out, kept seeing the OW and she was claiming prego 1, then prego2.

You will emotionally get to the level where you will tell him to go take a hike.

Right now we need you to pray for a calm heart and a clear mind. That will help you keep your focus. Are you on any meds yet?

Anxiety attacks for me were in my opinion quite strong. I didn't get meds (my girlfriend just asked me about that today) but maybe I should have. Anyway, know that based on your d/d, this is where most are as far as the emotional state.

Now, I will say this...... you are NOT worthless. But you can NOT expect him to be rational right now so don't ask anyone to give you a rational explanation. ok??!?!? Just can't be done.

Now if you want for some of us to interpret his babble talk and actions...... well I think you can already do that yourself.... but we will try if you want us to do so. Just holler. LOL!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

ok., wipe those tears and give us a small smile or I will share my laundry story again....LOL!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Hugz,
L.

Yjamks everyone, I know he's in the fog, but it seems worse than ever. I'm just afraid he'll never come out of itand I'm going to lose him forever. But if he doesn't I don't want him the way he is either. I'm not on anything yet but may call my doctor tomorrow, I am getting more depressed and the anxiety is worse, it's been a constant, but my chest has been hurting and I've been dizzy. I know I'm obsessing but it just hit me kinda hard that he is seeing another woman now. And she is in town so he can see her whenever. The only consolation is that OW1 doesn't know and thinks everything is peachy. She just left today and tonight he is with the other one. Wait til that blows up in her face and his. But that is why I need to go to plan b, no more insanity from him. Thanks for letting me vent, I think my friends are sick of it, they figure just get on with it, quit putting up with it and get divorced. But that's not their call to make.