Mapleleaf...I'm concerned about you...

Well, Hey Space!

Good to see you! We've missed you! CSue

Hey CSue! How are ya?
I'm doing well, thank you. Hopefully will have something worth posting about soon!

I'm concerned about ML...totally disappeared...

Space,

I know. It's one of the downsides to the wonderful anonymity we can have here. There's no "next of kin" when someone disappears. I think you're doing the best thing in case ML is lurking. CSue

Space,
Good to see you, we were wondering about you also, so I am glad you are still breathing. (Although, I have heard that some can still mannage to type for days after they expire, especially after getting hooked on the MB site.)

I haven't heard seen anything from ML in quite awhile either.

SS

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by still seeking:
<strong>Space,
Good to see you, we were wondering about you also, so I am glad you are still breathing. (Although, I have heard that some can still mannage to type for days after they expire, especially after getting hooked on the MB site.)

SS</strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">ROFLOL!!! Hey, maybe I AM in those "final days" of typing after expiring!!!

bump!

I'm not giving up on you, ML!

Spacecase,
I was moved to tears to fing your thread about... ME!!! Your loyalty and your concern really warmed my heart. Thank you.
I have not been on MB at all until today. I had gone into overdose or overload or something and just could not deal with any of it: my situation, other's problems and pain. It had just become too much to bear. Very cowardly of me but what can I say?
I don't know when I last posted but this is where I am now. I have been seeing an IC and she has helped me a lot in trying to understand what has been happening to me on a personal level since this madness started three years ago. As a result I am calmer (antidepressants help too) and perhaps sadder but at least not as angry and lost as before.
The phone conversations with you helped me tremendously too although I am nowhere near where you are in your life. By the way I have emailed you many times to no avail. I am having problems with my email I think.
My H is still in his empty appartment, still seeing OW almost every other week-end from what I gather. I never talk about her and have reduced R talks to almost nil.
I told him he could resume work on the house if he wished and he did come a couple of times. We talked about everyday stuff and the conversations were pleasant.
I had decided to go with our friends on our yearly wine tasting tour and a few days before going, H called to ask if I would mind if he came along. I told him it was up to him and he did come. It was a lot of fun as usual and we did not talk about our problems at all so everything went well in that department. We had our usual room (reserved a year ahead of time) at our favourite B&B and we even shared the same bed. This B&B is full 6 months in advance and there was no way we could have asked for an additional room. He did hug me a couple of times and even kissed me in the neck to wake me up one day. I did nothing to stop him but did not initiate anything myself.
We drove there and back together (5 hours each way) and the conversation was light and friendly. When he dropped me off at home he gave me a long warm hug something he has not done in months.
I know better than to see anything into this except perhaps that he was happy that things were not awkward for us all. Our friends found out a couple of weeks before we left that we were separated and we were both worried that it may be a difficult situation for them. The husband is my H's best friend. We met them at their house and then the wife drove up with me and H drove up with his friend. I am very fond of them both. I told his wife why we were separated and she was shocked and irritated to say the least with my H's attitude. I don't know what my H discussed with hid friend but I doubt they even talked about it.
The week-end after that my H went to see OW in her city. I found out from another friend who does not know anything about our situation, that H had come by (alone). I was not surprised about the news but disappointed of course.
My H called about a house matter and I told him that I was disappointed but not surprised and thought the conversation would end there but he started telling me how when he was with OW this time he kept thinking that he should not be there, that we had and did a lot of good things together and that he was stupid to do this. It was hard but I managed to refrain from telling him "then why are you doing it?". As advised by SH, I told him once more that there was no way we were going back to the way things were before our separation i.e with OW anywhere in the picture. I was the one who ended the conversation.
I am surprised at how calm I am now and how determined I am to have the marriage I want or no marriage at all although I know that deep down I am still worried about losing him. The difference is that fear does not rule anymore. It is just the nature of the beast.
That's about it for now.
Spacecase, how are you and what is happening with you? From what I can tell you have been as silent as me. Please let us know what's up. Merci, mon rocher.

Ma Cherie!
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I don't have much to report from my side, but very glad you are doing well...I hope we can somehow solve the email problems...

Take care, and stay well!