Thanks. Just needed to scream. You may return to your regularly scheduled life.

Oh, Yeah,

Scream at us like that and then just expect us to go back to work like nothing happened.

I can't believe it ! ! ! !

So how is coguy, and what is happening that you need to scream like that?

SS

I am needing to do that too!! AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I am trying so hard not to LB right now. My WH has decided that he's not going to go to the Halloween carnival at my best friend's church. He says he never said he was going in the first place. How can he not want to be a part of his kids events? Maybe I'm just sentimental or something. I don't want to miss anything. I absolutely hate doing things by myself, but I'm not going to let him stop me. I have got to start doing things on my own just incase something doesn't work out and I do become a single mom. I have always depended on him and if he decided he didn't want to do something then I would cancel all plans. No more. It's not fair to me and it's not fair to the kids. Life does exist outside of the world I built around him. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

SS ... lol! Just sometimes need to scream at the absurdity and the general lack of rationality that is the BS experience. It's like trying to understand war or the heroism of 9/11. Rationally speaking, they're all impossible to comprehend. But living this life every day forces one to try to make some kind of sense of it. It just sometimes drives me batsh!t thinking about it all. Combine this with the fact that I really miss my wife ... even with her in the same house.

do we just join in a screaming contest to see who can scream the loudest? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I know, I was just yanking your chain.

I thought you were making progress? Doesn't it feel that way ?

SS

sounds like a plan to me!!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Still crazy,
I agree that you have to go on and do things, I hope if you talk to him about it that you don't LB. Just say something like this.
"The kids and I are going to go anyway, I wish you were going with us, and I will miss you, but I feel I should go ahead and go with the children.
Then leave, don't LB about it. OK?

SS

Thanks!!! I have been holding my tongue all afternoon. He keeps asking me if I'm still taking them and I told him yes and that I really would like for him to come too. He said he wasn't that he was going to hang out with the guys. It just scares me to leave him alone but as he said I have to start somewhere. So here is somewhere. I am going with the kids to have fun and let him have fun hanging out with the guys. I believe him. I think. There will always be some kind of doubt. But I am squashing that tonight so that I can have some true fun and not worry myself to death. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by still seeking:
I thought you were making progress? Doesn't it feel that way ?
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I'm making progress and I feel good about it. It took me months to feel like I'm in stride ... and not taking baby steps. It's the marriage that's in baby steps mode and I get a little frustrated by that.

All of us have those frustrated days. I could tell you stories but I can't type all that fast and you know what happens if you are late getting home on Halloween night (when the kids want to go out and W wants you to help.)

Tomorrow will be better, at least it almost always is for me.

See you later.

SS