H has been gone all day, up to a friends cottage to work on his Business Plan. I was feeling so empowered this afternoon. I was actually feeling GOOD about H not being here. There was a certain aura of peace in this house (and there still is).

But it's almost bedtime for me now. And I'm thinking about H. I'm almost willing to forget all of the nasty and terrible things he's done to hurt me - especially in the last few weeks. ALMOST!

I'm tempted to call him. And I refuse to, which is why I'm posting on here. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> Besides, I have this feeling that he won't answer my call anyways (cursed call display!), and that would only bother me more.

I did call him earlier on tonight, to let him know that his parents are visiting tomorrow, and would be here at around 1pm if he wanted to come home by then to see them. But I have no idea if he even picked up the message. I don't really care, b/c at least I know I passed on the information.

Night time is so hard, don't you agree? I forgot about how lonely I really felt during our 4 month separation. However, so far, this time I feel quite different. The biggest difference is that my emotions aren't flipping out all over he!!s 1/2 acre. Dare I say I'm calm??? I'm accepting. Yes! That's the word to best describe it! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Well... my eyes are seeing fuzzy. No, not fog, just regular ol' tiredness. It's been a long day. It's been a long week. Heck, who am I kidding? It's been a he!! of a long couple of years!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Good night all. And thanks again for all of your support today. I love my MB angels! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> (that's YOU too!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> ).

And here's hoping that this is my last post until later tomorrow afternoon. I want to get some sleep. It's GREAT that I don't have the snorers in the house tonight (both H and the 3 1/2 yr old are TERRIBLE!!! They wake me up, and keep me awake with their snoring.).

Karen

Dear Karen,

Hope you see this after you had a good nights sleep. So your H has 1 of the children?

Don't really know what to say except vent here when you need and let us know how we can help. ok? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Hugz Karen,

L.

Yes Orchid. I had a GREAT night's sleep actually. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> I didn't get woken up once in the middle of the night due to H's snoring. I was FANTASTIC!!

Eric is with my dad right now. He stayed overnight there (it's only next door). They have so much fun together, and I get a break... it's a win/win situation to ship the kid off to grampa's! LOL

I was hoping to sleep in longer than I did. Sheesh! I was up at 7a.m. Not at all sleeping in, is it? But I'm rested. More so than I have been in months. I guess I could have slept more... but the twins were just a roarin' to go this a.m. They like it when Eric is out too. Because I let them play in his room. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Karen