Hi Nat:<P>I just read some of your posts under another thread and can really empathize with what you are going through. I am in the exact same position as you. I fell in love with a co-worker (he's single). I am so happy when I am with him, and I don't think about anything else. Then I go home, and am very depressed, anxious and guilty. <P>Like you, I can't imagine my life without either of these men. But I know I have to make a choice -- I can't keep this up for much longer. It's making me crazy and desperately unhappy. <P>I never thought I would end up in this situation. I'm a good person, but have made some really bad decisions. <P>Good luck to you. Keep us posted of your progress. <P> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR>

Hi! Nat and KL, I am in the same boat and don't know what to do I also have fallen in love with a co-worker, since then I have changed departments in different bldgs. I have been doing this for over 4 years now. He has met someone else who just stated working in his building. I can't blame him for wanting someone to be with a lot more than we are together. It really kills me that I can't be there with him. I think about them in bed together, whether that is happening or not I can still imagine it. He says they are just friends. She doesn't have a car so he gives her rides home from work and to the store. They have one of the same days off. They have went to other towns to go shopping and stuff. I told him 4 weeks ago I couldn't do this anymore it hurt to bad. He usually calls once a week. It had been two weeks this time. He called and said he was through giving her anymore rides of anything. I don't know whats up with that he didn't say. I have a very loving husband. All he has ever did is try to make me happy. I just don't know why I thought I needed someone else to talk to at first. He would listen and not judge me for what i was saying. I got to the point I couldn't tell my husband anything without him making a commit like "well I really wanted to hear about that" or "you are so stupid". He blamed me for making all the bills we have. like he never bought anything. I have a 25 year old brother that we raised since he was 4 years old. We both consider him ours and a 13 year old. I think it is going to take both of us to keep him in line in a few years. I really hate to have him leave while he is still so young. I just sit and think about the om all the time. What it would be like to spend the night with him. I know deep down in my heart that things would never work between us unless he changed a lot. He has been a lone for so long he has his own routine of life. I am lost on what to do. I feel like I can tell myself we would never make it but there are days when I don't think I can let go until I know for sure. But by that time, I may have lost my h by then. I am also afraid of being alone. I have no family except the one boys I have raised and my own son. Everyone else is already dead. That has always been my greatest fear. Being alone. If I decide to leave my h for the om and it doesn't work out I know my h will never take me back again. We went through that before we got married. I don't think he would go through that again. I would loose everything. Please help!