I wrote the following a few months back:
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">TIME IS YOUR FRIEND; IT HEALS ALL WOUNDS. AT LEAST THAT’S WHAT THEY TELL YOU.
BUT RIGHT NOW TIME DOES NOT APPEAR TO BE ANYTHING MORE THAN A PASSING OF MY LIFE THROUGH DEFINED MEASURED SEGMENTS. EACH TICKING SECOND IS A HAMMER BLOW. EVERY PASSING MINUTE IS ANOTHER NAIL IMPALED THROUGH ME. THE HOURS ARE LONG AND ARDUOUS. DAYS ARE TORTUROUS. WEEKS ARE PURE AGONY. MONTHS ARE INSANITY!</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I look at this now and almost can’t believe I wrote it, but I surely was in a lot of pain, and understandably so. I am taking more and more control of my own personal well-being ness. I now see myself as being responsible for making my own happiness and achieving a good sense of self-worth and self-fulfillment. I am happier today than I was a few months ago, not because my spouse has changed (actually not much at all), but because
I have changed
inside. I have grown as a person and am making positive changes in my life. I am ultimately in control of my destiny. I do not depend on others to make me feel good about myself, nor do I look to others for a reaffirming sense of self-worth. I feel as though my co-dependent tendencies have been shed like an old skin. My illusions and delusions are gone. I feel that I now look at life with eyes anew. This has been a most sobering experience. It has shaken me and woken me up out of my blissfully ignorant dreamland. I am reprioritizing and getting myself back on-track to being who I truly know myself to be. Right now at this time in my life, I feel as though the "me" that existed in March 2002 is so far distant from the "me" that exists today. But it is a good change and I am enjoying the journey!
A friend sent this neat link to me. It is very life reflecting. Check it out and tell me what you think.
http://www.llangley.com/yoga/wisdom/rightnow%5B2%5D.htm <small>[ November 08, 2002, 07:07 PM: Message edited by: Blind Sided ]</small>
