ANNIVERSARY millstone to day is hurting bad I woke up dead. Don’t know what to do? She was late leaving to work in tears. Which made the stone grow bigger? I guess I'll take her to dinner? I can't make up my mind wreath to take girl or not (will it be protection for discussion or a family thing.) My brain aches I don’t know if it’s a migrant and I need to take my meds or it’s just the day. I’ve been wondering if the mean spirited I’ve feel was coming of this day. I love her but the way I love her I don’t know if it’s healthy or not [I feel guilty when we do the (WILDTHING) afterwards. A sin or something .she’ll work late in fear of getting served Divorce papers The One Rule was to live for the kids because joy is some thing they bring and you wouldn’t get lost on the way It worded for me ,but it didn’t work for her .She couldn’t tell me how Brett was good for the kids wellbeing. I cause her so much pain. When I ask my question to find out why she when down the path she did. The accident changed me for along time, but I was becoming me again when she went out on me! I an ACFT mechanic I fix thing .I need to troubleshoot our relationship so we don’t make the same mistakes again. And she won’t talk about it directly only around it. I’ve quit asking I don’t know what to do !I let myself become overwhelmed and can’t get out of this hole I’ve dug !! IT would make fourteen years today. YALL have good day and look before you leap or open your mouth!! Trust is a strange thing to find once you are betrayed I’LL pray for you all to find a road that’s safe and firm to walk on Be Good. BY

I ramble on I know Sorry( building my typing skills maybe?