[[[kimmy1]]]

So GLAD to hear from you. Prayers and hugs coming your way.

Cali

Dear Kimmy,

Hope you get better soon. I know you have a lot on your plate right now, so I will keep it short.

Lots of hugz, prayers and support from out here in CA.

Aloha,
L.

Kimmy,

I am glad you are on Celexa. I know some people for whom it was a miracle drug. For me, it helped but I did have some side effects- sleepiness and lack of sexual desire. So I ended up switching to a different med that worked better for me.

If you find after a couple of weeks that you are still feeling sad, ask your doc to increase the dose. If you are crying a few times a day, it usually means the anti D isn't working yet.

Hugs, hoping things look up for you soon.

Hi Kimmy...glad to hear from you. Thats good that you started the anit-d's, i am on Zoloft and it took about 3 or 4 weeks to kick in. Actually i am still on them. You will feel much better when they start to take effect. Am thinking about you, so hang in there, better days are coming my friend.....A/C0810

kimmy1-

I know it's hard to imagine right now, but the sun is going to shine on you one day soon and you WILL be happy again...Your honesty and integrity shine through in your posts and that's what will see you through in the future. We'll be praying for you to get through these next few months so you can begin to rebuild....Good luck!

Assurance of Guidance (Proverbs 3:5-6):
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him
and He will make your paths straight."

Hi..I'm back from court already. I was there for only an hour. Just like on tv, I was 'delayed'. The paperwork wasn't ready. So..now I wait to hear from my lawyer about a date in the new year.

It wasn't that bad. The anticipation was worse than the actual attending. But, it was very weird to have to stand up when they called my name and my lawyer talked to the judge about having to delay. Very surreal experience.

I'll keep in touch.

I don't have much to say. You've been in my prayers. Keep strong.

Be well.

Well, having a bad day today. Last night I was so angry at my H for 'doing this to me and the kids' but today I feel very sad. Couldn't sleep and kept thinking about a trip to Ottawa we all made in April. Thinking about how at dinner one night my H had his arm around me and we were laughing, and then thinking about all the sites we saw and what a great time we had. Then, July..he's gone.

I just don't understand why he left. I still, after everything that's happened don't get it. I replay my life with him over and over, and can't come up with a good reason for him to just walk away.

Yesterday I met with my separation lawyer and after I left I was very sad. I hope all of this is worth it to my H. We are going to both end up financially not very well off. I hope whatever or whoever he left us for is worth throwing away a good life and ending up financially badly off.

My friends say I'll probably never understand it.

I know for a fact he's going to regret this one day..big time. He'll realize that there isn't anyone out there better for him, and he'll never have his own family unit again, and he'll wonder what the hell he's done. But, by then it will be too late and our household will be dismantled.

I just hope it's all worth it to him. I bet it won't be.

Hi everyone. Well, Xmas was good and bad. Good in the fact that the kids and I did better than we thought we would. We went to church Xmas Eve, like always, but I turned down invitations to people's houses that night as I wasn't sure how I'd be ..depressed or not. The week leading up to Xmas I was very upset so was 'afraid' of how I'd be. And, Xmas Eve my H always read 'The Night Before Xmas' to the kids, and then our D would make up Santa's plate of food, and after the kids went to bed my H and I stayed up, watched a video, drank wine, and wrapped last minute gifts. What I did was rent a Xmas movie for me and the kids, we got in our pj's, had snacks and relaxed. Had a really good time and my D made up Santa's plate and they went to bed. I stayed up another hour or so and then also went to bed. So far, so good.

Xmas morning, the kids got up really early and we opened our stockings. Then I made breakfast with my D's help. My H always made Xmas morning breakfast, but we had a good time just the 3 of us. After breakfast we opened our gifts and instead of my H being here handing out gifts, we took turns.

I was so relieved that Xmas had happened and we'd survived! Even my D said how we'd done so well. There had been no tears and we were enjoying ourselves. The stress I had been under was lifted as I thought that day was a huge hurdle to cross and I felt great. The kids were picked up by my H at 3:00 and I knew I'd be fine on my own. I rented movies, and a friend came over later on and we had a drink and again, I surprised myself feeling so good.

The next day the kids came home and my sister and another friend were coming to visit and I was cooking a turkey dinner and that day was our 'Xmas dinner'. Lots of fun and laughs, and again I felt great. It was empowering as what an emotional time to get through, as we all know on this site and I feel fortunate to have come through it feeling positive.

Everything was great until Friday when our cat, who was 17 got really ill and we had to take her to the vet. She had stopped eating and was extremely lethargic. Unfortunately after running some tests they determined that old age had kicked in and her liver and kidney were only functioning at 1/3 their capacity. They could put her on intravenous, etc to prolong her life but it would only be a matter of weeks. We decided the best thing to do was to put her down. The kids were devastated, especially my D who was totally attached to her, but they also understood it was the best thing and she hadn't suffered long. That night was rough after we came home and my D wanted to know 'why everything bad happened to her. First Daddy leaves, then Queenie dies'. How do you answer a question like that. Heartbreaking.

The weekend was good but then today my luck changed again. I had the call from Children's Aid. The police had told me that they could come and investigate me because of the charge but it's been a while now so I didn't think they would. Well, I was wrong. They're coming to interview me tomorrow morning at 9:00 a.m. Just what I need over the holidays. Great. My nightmare just keeps going on and on.

I'm not worried, but I'm nervous..I'll admit that. Just another rotten thing to have to go through.

I wanted them to come early so that it's done and we can get on with our day. I'm taking the kids out for breakfast as our new year's eve treat, and my H gets them and takes them out for dinner.

Anyway, I check this site almost every day so am keeping in touch with all your posts. Will post again soon.

Hope you are doing ok Kimmy, been thinking about you.

ayslyne

Hi Kimmy, I am so glad you made it through Christmas alright. The first one is always so tough isn't it? After that I think it gets easier. I am sorry about your cat. Its always so hard to lose a beloved pet. And so hard on your children who have already experienced such a great loss this year.

Keep your chin up tomorrow. I know you will do just great.

Kimmy - Best of luck on the children's aid interview. I know it will go fine. Your xmas sounded pretty good to me and your kids sound as if they had a good christmas also. It breaks my heart to read the comment from your D about daddy and the cat, but I think we can all assume that, like us BS, the children have good days and bad ones too.

You sound like a remarkable woman Kimmy to have made it through a very trying time with the holidays, the court situation, the assault charges and the cat. It's one of those series of unfortunate events that if you had been told in advance you would be coping with you wouldn't have believed it.

Kimmy, we haven't heard from you in a while. How are you doing? I've been thinking about you and your kids lately.

Does anybody have an update on Kimmy?

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Cali

^^ bump

bump for Kimmy