Just wanted to let you all know that I am still out here. Filed for divorce last wek. Feels good to finally let it go. SYBX quit his job last month. I am having to get a second job to make ends meet. Still living with his parents while I am looking for a place with Lance, my best friend. Most of my stuff is on storage and the paxil has finally kicked in.
Tha anti depressants work so well you guys.
I know this is the right solution, he doesn't want to work on anything and after 6 months the affair is still in full swing.
We are basically just living together, no marriage stuff.
I hope it all works out for you guys, you are still in my thoughts and prayers.
I will check in from time to time to see how all of you are doing.
Thanks so much for being there when I needed friends that understood what was happening to me.
I love you guys and you are all, always in my prayers.
Keep the faith and don't look at this as a failure. Sometimes it just doesn't work out.
Moving on and up,
Layli

BTW, Hopeforfuture, I couldn't have made it this far without you. And to Lisa in London, Honey and everyone else that has been so good about posting to me. I truely hope things work out for you guys,
Love ya,
Layli

Hey Layli girl
I've been thinking about you alot. I'm sorry you had to file. PLEASE feel free to drop over to the Divorcing/Divorced board here at MB. There are alot of others in our shoes there too.

Llama Hhugs,
Llama

Layli

When I first posted here, yours was the first response and you sent a hug - so I'm sending one back to you now.

I am sorry that things have not worked out for you, but it is a sad fact that not all marriages can be saved. You will know in your heart that you have done what you can, and no-one here will (or frankly has the right to) think any the less of you for filing for DV - it is not a failure, just a sad story. Hopefully one day you will be able to come back and tell us all of happier times.

Don't go away completely though. Please check in from time to time just to let us know how you are and that you are out there and doing well.

Thinking of you and sending you very best wishes from London.

Lisa

Layli,

Keep taking care of you! That is what is important- nothing we can do to change them...

I know it is difficult ,but you have grown and you are strong... you know u deserve better.

Have a happy day! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Ho <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> ney

I was looking for ya last week and was just thinking of sending out another call....I'm glad you checked in!

I know I should be sad for you...but I don't think I am! You deserve so much more for yourself and you certainly don't need to grovel and beg to be paid attention to. You've done all you can...and moving on is a good step. It certainly doesn't mean the end. Even if H is stupid enough to lose you...it's the beginning of new and wonderful things for you!

I hope you find a place soon. It'd be good to get out so you can really start living for yourself. Keep in touch!!!

Thanks for all your kind responses. I am still lurking but still unable to post. STBX is always on his computer so it is rare when I can post.
I adore you all.
Feel free to email me whenever, to keep me posted.
mcmcfie@yahoo.com
Love you guys!
Big HUGS <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />
Layli