Hi Orchid,
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. This surgery has been really hard on me. As for Lor's post, it made a lot of sense to me. I talked to my husband weeks ago and told him he either loved me and wanted to work it out or he didn't, his choice. Since that conversation things have been better. He has put up pictures of mine, put together a make-up table for me in the bathroom, unpacked my books and put them in bookselve. He still has good days and bad days. Like today, he didn't kiss me good-bye at lunch. I always tend to make to much out of it when he dosesn't. I don't say anything, I just wonder and feel hurt. When he goes in computer room to play games and listen to music, I give him his space. Still it doesn't feel the same as before and I wonder is this going to hurt me in the long-run. I am going home to MS. Dec.18-31st, for the holidays. I hope we can continue to get better when I return. For goodness sakes, because of the surgery, we haven't even been able to have !!!,which is driving me crazy. With all the other problems it feels that this is also taken away from me. I know I will be well soon. Just feeling sorry for myself right now. All in all, he does seem to be moving more toward us being together than apart. Thanks for listening! How have you been doing?

<small>[ December 08, 2002, 11:42 PM: Message edited by: gonetofar ]</small>

Hi GTF,

Sorry for the delayed response. I truly did not see this post. Thanks for bringing it to my attention.

I am glad your H is being more attentive. As for up and down days, well happens more than we want. Still a bit of a rollercoaster and the BS is afraid to let their guard down, right?

At least that is how it has been for me. Right now, I sent H out there to think about what he really wanted. Can't say it will be good and even our son is wondering about his dad.

Not so much in the contact phase with PBR but there was one that just happened due to a 'simple question'. You should have seen where that 'simple question' sent me. Mini d/d. YUCK!

Anyway, I have dealing with it with a venagenous and really making us both look at what we need to really do. I don't want to go into all of it right now but that's the gist of it.

Please take care of yourself. You must heal before you can go play ok?!??!? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Have a fun trip to MS.

Hugz,
L.