WAT

Dealing with an A is enough on it's own. I could deal with that but for me it's the timming or extenuating circumstances of when it happend. It's this part I find maybe too incensitive for me to want to rebuild.

I was down and out and not by choice. Not sure I can get past this part. I want my M to work, I don't want to see my WW in pain. I want my kids to be happy but I want to be happy also. I love so deeply and true but.....

It's more than being broken hearted, It was life and death and I don't know if I can get over being abondoned in that time of need.

PS. your son is in my thoughts.