It's been a great and strange journey. I have been feeling really depressed lately and then I realized that maybe, just maybe, I was dreading the 1 year annv of d-day much in the same way one mourns again on the 1 yr annv of a dear one's passing. Now that I realize it, I feel free once again from the shackles that bind me in my mind.
The positive results from D-day are:
I have permanently lost over 50 pounds (190 lbs, down from 245 lbs)
I quit smoking at the end of March '02, so it will be 1 yr since I quit smoking coming up Apr. 1st.
I have reconnected and rekindled old friendships and stay in touch w/family more often.
I have excelled myself at work.
I have found a new spiritual reawakening within myself.
I have reclaimed my self-worth and self-identity.
I have lost my "rose colored" glasses.
I find myself being more genuine and sincere in all of my human dealings.
I speak my mind more often without using passive-aggressive sarcasms.
I reach out with all I have to all who are around me, yet remain centered within myself to maintain balance.
I learned a tremendous lesson in forgiveness, love, and human frailties.
I love Life too much to let anything like this keep me down and rob the sheer enjoyment of living from me.
At the end of this year, I now call D-Day, Free Day, because it freed me to be myself once again. It lifted away the veil of ignorance and brought me into the world anew once again. You could say I was "reborn"; at least that is how I look at it. Anyway, I continue to come here for support and to support others, as often as time allows, and I greatly appreciate the material I have read here and the wonderful advice I have received from so many that belong to MB. I am truly grateful.
That's it for now. I just wanted to drop in with my 1-year update! I will be back tomorrow!
God Bless <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
<small>[ March 10, 2003, 08:40 PM: Message edited by: Blind Sided ]</small>
